We’re already at the end of season one, dear people! When did that happen? Luckily, there’s lots more to come. Like right now, with episode eight.

The very first thing I need to focus on this week is the title of this episode. Even without knowing the actual piece of dialogue, which I will definitely get into later on, the title alone is enough to make you take a moment and think “wow”.

To now look further into the episode I have to share that for me, this is one of those stand-out episodes that is able to showcase just how well a show is written. The episode starts with the search for Dr. Urvidian, which then moves into a very cute scene where our boy Akmazian is once again being very flirty with Ryan, who in turn is being his usual sassy self. My eyes are up here and all that. I mean, amazing, iconic, showstopping, literally what the audience wants to hear. Had it just been half an hour of these two dating disasters being flirty with each other, I still would’ve loved the episode. And don’t even get me started on his scrapbook!

But the fact that this scene was the softest moment of the episode before we were shoved onto an emotional rollercoaster, that’s what makes it so incredibly captivating. I mean, Levi dying? Seriously, even now whenever I hear Jane say the words “Levi’s dead”, my heart does a sad little “NoOo”. Like a child’s quivering lip, but in heart form. Hearing “we’re not gonna make it in time” was bad enough, you didn’t have to actually kill him!

I think what hits the hardest about that part, next to the thought of losing Levi, is that we only hear what’s happening on the Silent Storm and we aren’t actually with Jane. I don’t know why, but the fact that she’s alone when Levi dies still makes me sad whenever I hear the episode.

And then, just when you think it can’t get worse, we get what for me personally is one of the most heartbreaking moments in the whole series. The moment Ryan asks Dr. Urvidian what finally pushed him over and he says “Nothing more than the harsh light of another day”. …I mean, how very dare you?! Yes, of course I want to shower you with all the awards as these performances are next level. But also: stop it! We already lost Levi and now you’re throwing this at us? I know we get Levi back, but I didn’t know that the first time. The pain was, and for the most part still is, very real.

Damn, okay, I might need to end this post on a happier note. So…yeah, just think about a drunk Dr. Urvidian talking about the worm in the Tequila bottle! I’m pretty sure I could listen to him slurring “I’m not going to eat the worm” and “Maybe I will eat the worm” on repeat for days.